Since my last post from 9 October, i vanished for a while, because i had too much work to do, and mainly because my schedule was hectic and i failed to control my internet usage (too many tabs). But altough that happend, i kept working on some things i set as priority, like my general phisical aspect, some skill development, finances and relationships. And in a subtle manner, by being active in the internet i worked for this blog too, because it has to do with my future plans for it.
This image gives an ideia of the the amount of work i had to deal in my job every day, i was exhausted during the night at home.
New guidelines for this blog
Well, i set new guidelines for this blog, because i didn’t liked the way things were going, too much negativity, and belive me, i’m not that negative in person, but it was a bad phase, which i belive now is starting to get better, it’s on my best interest it does!
So about the new guidelines for this blog, i set that i will post at least 2 posts every week, on every Wednesday at 0:00 a.m (local time) and every Saturday at 0:00 a.m (local time). I might post more, and i wish i do, because i have so much to share and discuss, but i can’t promise more than that for now.
Along with this, there will always be special closing and opening posts for the month that ended (like October ended yesterday) and the month that is coming (we are now in the beginning of November!).
These specials topics will be something like:
Closing: The results of the month in many areas of my life, like finances, health, relationship, etc. And a general talking evaluation about the blog or some other topic.
Opening: The short term goals for the weeks or the entire month during the starting new month, so i can evaluate my progress in the month end.
Enough of that, let’s get into the real deal! What happend in this time?
I did nothing that i can remember, of course i set no goals too for the month, so i can’t blame myself in any aspect for this month. But what i’ve been doing for sure here is working on my blog via informal means and soon i might start vlogging on my Youtube Channel, which might be a different form to bring cotent to you dear reader with more expression and quality, completing the experience offered by my words here.
Health related, i kept without consuming industrialized food overall, i still consume it though because of the spices on the food i eat, which i don’t have much control because i have to go with what there is to eat at work, but i try to stay more clean and basic, just some meats, mostly grilled chicken and some salad with grains, olive oil too some times during the week.
It’s been kind of great, and reduced some of misery related to symptoms i lately used to feel really bad, like sinus, runny nose, breathing problems, mouth ulcers and gas problems, just to say some, which are more common, though i had other more unlikely like stye. If not curing and banishing these problems, at least it helped to reduce its intensity and to space its occurrence.
About remedy and drugs, i still use a topical steroid every two weeks or more to control my seborrheic dermatitis, which i think is really prejudicial, and i will probably have to go on a withdrawal from topical steroids and every related product for one or two years, and the thought of going through it is hell to me and i try to avoid it at all coast as this will direct impact on my financial plans, i will probably have to stay locked in someones house for 2 years without working, just recovering.
As hard as it seems, i have to face it that if this is the only way, i will have to go through this, but meanwhile i try to purify my eating, maybe lately experiencing some raw vegan organic diet to combat this symptoms and not having to go through all of this, but only time can tell.
If you don’t know what i am talking about, just for the sake of increasing your own consciousness and knowledge, you can search about “topical steroid withdrawal” and “red skin syndrome”. By the way, i’m not even near as bad as the pictures you may find on Google, mind you.
The truth is, i made huge progress this year, and if i can be able to hold into what i did to solidify and increase the quality of my eating, i will be making a solid base to advance even further into the path of extreme health eating. Mind you, almost everyone you know will think you are crazy for what you are doing, but when you are so raided by health problems like i do, you will probably suicide or try to get better.
About exercise, i try to keep it simple, 30 minutes cardio on total, just doing some medium intesity with 2x – 1 min sprinting as hard as i can cardio on a stationary bycicle that i have in home. My routine is doing muscular exercises first, and cardio later, because it’s scientific proven that it’s better to do this way, and makes sense to use your energy for muscular activity before doing cardio to me. But i don’t do muscular exercise every day, i follow one day in, and one day out routine, even on the weekends.
My workout routine is as follows, not in any specific order:
– Inclined pushups (on a sofa)
– Two chairs triceps workout (one you sit your feet, the other you put your hands)
– Squat (without weight)
– Everyday neck exercises (trying to fight some accient problem of mine, this is personal)
Lately i’m 2 weeks off from exercise, but i will return to track once again, as i did what i wanted to do, and now understand more about the necessity to FOCUS!
I’ve been doing this and had sucess to drop weight and enter again on my BMI superior normal range. I don’t know my Body Fat right now, but it seems lower than 20%. and right now i look like this:
What i like the most about my body is my veins, if i got some not so good genetic, at least i got good cards to my veins…
Anyway, i got much to work on my body still, and some things will need future tech, which i hope to help developing as i ain’t gonna stay waiting for a change.
This was Phase 1 of my goal, return home (BMI range), now phase 2 involves going to the lower range, or after the lower range, so i can figure out how to change body composition from there, i will not say much, better do, as i have work to do, and the way is hard as hell!
I kind of diminished and foccused more on the content i want online, but it is still not enough, i have a e-mail box full of info to catch up, and i don’t see myself doing this in 2015. I still need to learn more how to control myself, figure out patterns and triggers, just so i can have better results. One thing i surely learned is i can’t do everything, though i wanted, it’s time to FOCUS and learning to say NO!
Magically enough, i can keep up with good grades in general without having to give myself a lot to study, and my grades at university has been really high, though i want only the best and i’m still not there, nor do i realistic think i will get there as i am not focusing much on it, i should have studied more, but i didn’t…
I’m not studying to public concourses, neither i am studying spanish adequate enough, i will try to keep a routine, the problem with routines is that you don’t have much space for new things, and i always try to keep some space, but i see now that it’s time to focus on what i have choosen for a while, and reap the fruits later.
After all the drama i went through because of this girl, i stopped talking with her, posted some indirect message on Facebook, and so did her stopped talking with me too. I did this because i couldn’t just be friends with her, though i tried, and because i discovered that she had interest in other guy, or at least showed to have, and as i’m not into triangle or disputes for love, i’m out of the game.
Now i’m back to my old formal self, trying to work out on having a better life, i made a vow that is very decisive, as you guys know i’m a transhumanist, so i belive that we can be immortals very soon, though nor i, neither anyone knows when. My vow is to stay 1.000 years without any relationship, no matter what chances arises, if any on my path, i’m not going.
This is in union with other 1.000 vow i made, this other is about discovering if life is worth to live or not in this time, if not, i will go through the euthanasia path probably, if it is worth, i will delve into existence and try to live to the fullest. And it seems now life might be good, my depression might be linked to lack of sleep, which is a ridiculous cause to have depression on my view (i’m talking only about myself here, mind you).
By the way, i’m not leting relationships or anything else be anymore a necessity to be happy, i can be happy without these, because if i can’t, than i won’t will be with these things too, and I DO NOT NEED, NOR ANYONE to HAVE A RELATIONSHIP, though WE ALL MIGHT WANT. I’m not an Incel anymore, i’m going voluntary through this path now, and whoever went through relationships knows that you have more time to work on yourself when you are single, and that is what i am going to do.
Satan is surely laughing of my pity financial situation right now
It has to do with my efforts, but not so much really, because my habits are really good, i keep saving more than 90% of my money, MOST OF THE TIME 100%, really! I don’t buy anything, i don’t have any debt, but the wage i gain, the opportunities at home, and the general economic situation of my country is so bad, that it’s hard to thrive here.
Actually my assets is something near $ 1.875 in american dollars, which is fucked up, because it took me ONE FUCKING YEAR OF SAVING to get to this pity level, meanwhile switzerland is evaluating a basic income, where you DO NOT NEED TO WORK (which is great!) of more than 2.500 dollas, and i worked one year to not having even that… Gross situation here folks!
I do not invest here, because variable investiments like stocks is really a bad investment nowadays at my country, and i’m kind of studying all the fix investments that we have to take action, i know i’m losing coast opportunity, but at least i’m gaining knowledge and my money is still rising every month, which is the most important.
Some pictures of my porverty level:
Explaining, this is a phone i used during many years not too long ago, a backpack i used some months ago during many months, and the shoes i still use to work, i can buy new things, but i should not, because i already have so little that any expense i have will have a huge impact.
That is why, i might be soon moving to NY city, where hell is located and things are hard as fucking hell (i’m up to the challenge, because i never give up, lol), but at least i will be more adequated to the local technology culture and gain more, even if everything is expensive. And from there i can work out on my business plan.
I think that sums up everything, hope you guys are doing well and always improving.