Update on the girl i have been talking with

It has been a rollercoaster of fuck ups and fuck downs, i don’t know what she is up to here, and i feel like something is lacking… So i just switch my focus back to money, health, education and things like this, tangible things in where you can achieve sucess, and just keep going.
Whatever…

That was my note, about a week ago, when i was supposed to write about this topic. Now, about a week later, i can make an update of the update.

EDIT: For those of you who want the full story, see it in this POST
read the parts written: The woman i am getting to know and The feelings we feel when we enter a relationship

How things have been?

Things have been kind of great, until i decided to put the relation to the test, after all, what is it worth to invest in something fake? I stopped talking with her for somedays, i will keep it up, to see if she is ever going to send a hello again at least, which might mean two things:
1) She likes me enough to miss me
2) She is just trying to keep me within reach to have the control

Anyway, during the time i was talking with her, i made some really courageous shots, that i never did in my life, i simply thought and said to myself: “Ok, you will never know if you don’t try, and if it works…” and so i did, one thing after another, which might have been a fuck up, maybe great, or maybe neutral (i don’t belive anything is neutral when it comes to this, just ignorable).

How do i feel, and what i expect for the future?

I feel kind of bad, lonely, but i’m still focused (on my goals), as always i try to be. I’m ok though, and will survive…

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I really expect somehow we make this work out, and i can find the hapiness and peace i have been looking for on this, but i know life is a hazy mystery, who knows what i’m going to achieve with this, maybe this is the end (i hope not, but if it is, i can’t help).
Well folks, if i can give an advice, it would be, you only learn some things when you try them!

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  1. Pingback: Update of the update, on her (plunge or die too) | Black US

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